What Represents You?
Is it strength, creating a reverie in impractical things? Dreams, miracles, beats you give up on
when blisters begin forming, limbs aching, are there to many pieces to see?
You are a coward... surviving, living, fearlessly, aren’t we? That I can’t quite see...
What are you? Do you trust flying to be true? I believe in the future where I can meet you.
Alive in a beautiful, magical, impractical reverie, it leads me, towards you…“how about for you, day on day?”It wasn’t the view that was outlined verbally, through me… a form of sympathy… are you reading, now that it's out of view? In all honesty, here isn’t amazing, here doesn’t have everything, here gets discouraged from little things, tiny things, microscopic, non-existing things.
Do you stop when you feel your heart thumping, sweating,
“how long has it been dripping?”.Waking, living in, for dreams; somewhere no one will see. Well, it might be...
If I didn't there would be no purpose here, for you? Me?
Giving up so easily, it finally broke me, freed…
The unknown surrounds me, magical beasts, beliefs in views out of reach, such as fairies...
Those are what continue pushing me, strongly… solidly standing, I don’t perceive a weak me.
Only lingering through memories.
Do you live by your beliefs, religiously?
Do you screw up?
I screw up beautifully... allowing souls to hold you who don't understand you or truly love you?
I let someone take something very important from me, a part of me, they used me. One who
doesn't see me for me. I fantasised about that moment constantly, always, it's something I can
never retrieve.
“You only acquire one, don’t you see?”Do you damage yourself for sympathy?
Do you lie constantly? Indifferent to being honest with me…
Have you wanted to commit infidelity, you've already… daydreaming constantly, nauseating...
Do you want to disintegrate young, fearing a new, older you?
Will they still whisper an “I love you”, next to you, for you?
Only one I've ever wanted to age with, grow old with.
There is a fallen who despises me, identical, alarming that it be... Frightening, irritating it’s all the same really…Deserving thanks, for supporting, loving, you I only believed...
You don't get everything, but don’t change a thing. Do you hate? Not me, well occasionally.
Nevertheless there is no one I would rather be. I love you, and I've come so far with just you and me. The who I emerge as is a sapphire, a glistening sapphire, out of reach...There are no rules that control me, here I am free.“Besides, when do I ever listen to he?”
Tuesday
Hey, Sir? Hear me, talk to me, vividly, directly, I can’t hear. Deaf, plastering my palms all over me, I swear they did it, not me. I swear, I swear Sir, believe me… Please…Only grey’s in different shades…
Goblin
Have you ever had a dream, where everything seemed clear?
Surreal, so very surreal...
Mischievous, so many letters would describe better.
Thoughts, waterfall, flooding, it's gushing out from all pores.
Digging into jewels, sparkly things, pleasurable bits, soft tangible, always, forever...
“All for me?”
You couldn't read anything?
You’re greedy, and think only of complacency.
Hypocrite through and through…
“All of me?”
Stepping stones that you can pick up bare handedly, there is no meaning, but I see many things.
Orchid, but vibrant, intense, sinking deeper…
“You’re hideous.”
No stroke could win now…
“You scare me.”
Seven Years Ago
The Lord spoke to me, he told me you can trust him, or something similar…
I fear hopes will grow only to be let down.
This excitement is it truly only womanly?
My heart flutters, the thought of bands, small bumps, names as one.
Feelings one, when thought deeply the heart sinks, feels as if it could shatter.
Am I stepping across a broken path?“I’m scared.”Giving it all, balloon floating away.
“What’s bright?”
Puzzle pieces, perfect books, jet planes crashing down… Sorry, joking…
I find it hard to believe, one would want forever.
My body shakes, heart tightens, scared, terrified.
Head first, fear falling, is it only you?
Talk to me, use your lips.
Pinky promises like two little kids.
Do I go back to my senses or dreams denied?
I dream of magical things, I want you to become a prince and be taken away on your horse.“I'm scared…”I was silently staring, from behind… “I’ve gotten engaged.”
Sinking, never a reality, might die.
Dreaming of red on a small pad, no bump.
“Everyone will leave you and you’ll have no one. Don’t trust, no one wants to marry you, be your friend or take you in. Give it up you filthy scum.”"Scared…"Do I sense beautiful things ending or is it fear talking?
Do you truly love, like this does you?
“You would know.”
I don’t know, I don’t know how to know, I just fucking don’t know...
113
Twisted, it’s all so twisted, spiraling, thighs intertwined, beautiful framework, only for their blue eyes. Your orbits make my blue deeper, bluer, only you, just for you. If not, then is it truly something to grasp on to with the thickest of tips? So many questions, where to set about…? Intimacy, petite figures, meaningless things, did he see? How did you define what to believe? Did the affection always reach the darkest, profound of beats? Static, two leather seats with foam somewhere in the midst between. Well, that’s what I perceived… Walked out, gently, was it gentlemanly, huh? Why did you stay when you were left on the side solus, you disappeared temporally, or so was observed… What came to the mind constantly, was it he, did you believe everything seen? Were you anything like the one in the backyard, walking lonesomely? When fondness slipped from the lips, did you taste bitterness or did the tenderness get stuck somewhere within your pearl white teeth?What I’m trying to mean… When he said he loved you, did you believe it to be, were you able to respond back, honestly, truthfully? He looked funny, did you actually believe him to be pretty? Were you happy, were you two actually ever happy, even remotely? But, still something any infant would cry to see, hard to believe…Gems, jewels, anything that could shimmer off of you. Gold or silver, what was he? Impressing and obsessing over all things minuscule, did you look like a tree? Hiccups, jaw dropping, what kind? Time traveling, do you fancy that? Ink soaked in wood, love letters, “Now that’s a memory” was it wholeheartedly? “Doesn’t love me, doesn’t love me” seemed so sadly… Why crazy? It doesn’t make sense to me, but I don’t have the dangling thing. If we truly have the same blood then I like to believe we could be somewhat similar in actions or in ways we perceive. Hey, tell me please? Piercing, using all surroundings, anything that cuts flesh easily. What happened? I’d love to read…Twisted, so twisted. I bet you wouldn't have any other ending. Sadistic or I would say if it wasn’t rude to, “oops”. I guess you still love, just possessively, never fading. Sorry, but just imagine walking in the infants, would you cry? I’m a liar, just wanting to see your cheeks stretch, just a bit, unfortunately together. I know it’s all selfishly, trust me, I… Do you think you’re unhappy for the new? How would they know what not to do, be, if not for the two? Building pathways, yellow or blue? But, I believe there are fortunate and unfortunate things at all surroundings. I don’t know how to mask this all, so it’s untranslatable… They talk about one, two, even five, seven but what about one hundred thirteen? That isn’t even close to three…
ちかい
Illustrate me a picture with your lips; lean in close to me, submerge me in your gorgeous anatomy, sink your wet tongue inside me, lower your teeth on top of me, make me bleed of something sweet.
Reveal your dreams, the things you think, perceive, present to me the glass no one sees…
You don’t hear me, open your ears please.
I despise you, you have beautiful eyes that captivate me.
I want to stare directly, don’t take such a bewitching gaze off of me.
When breaths connect, does air become rapid and windy, kinda like blindness or forgetting oxygen is a thing?Stomach turning beginning to feel a wee bit wheezy, it caused me to vomit down his body.
That rather turned his stomach which ways, didn't really appeal verbally.
I conveyed I was sorry, but his face just wilted to a weary gray.
I told him he was humorous, but only irking him to new shades.
I expected him to turn that of a red, but it resembled more of a marmalade jam?
“Too many sour candies?” I asked “gently”.
Developing into a green, I thought “You ain't throwing up on me.”
I told him the green was more appealing than marmalade, he didn’t think that was very funny.
Next to resembling a blue…
“Do you like rainbows, you’re only missing three to four colours?”
That was apparently REALLY not funny, he told me to be serious.
“What do you mean?”
He slapped me, and told me “You’ll see with your body”.
“Hell nah!”
Not funny either according to he, pinning me down and well…
I guess my jokes failed against me, but at least he was a pretty blue, kinda sexy.Technically speaking he didn’t violate me, I said “No”, not coming to a stop.
But, I'm indestructible, stronger, I could have brought it all to a halt instantly.
Plus, weren't we just playing “family”?
“You’re gonna go to hell!”
“Am I? Well, fuck… Can the sexy blue man come with me?”
It started out sweet…
Let’s go back to the bit of the illustration of you and me please…
Ora
She started saying things about herself, like… “Should I care?” She said things, like… “What about how I feel, once again why should I care?” She said things, like… “Think about me, why you?” What a silly girl... I wonder now, how is she?She shut her shining pupils, she drifted into a soundless sleep. She had visions of things one shouldn’t imagine to see, dream…
Realistically, she is filthy...
Realistically, nothing was seen...
Realistically, she never showed me, me…
Realistically, she despises me...
Realistically, she swallowed my soul down fully, meaning completely… and just as I felt her insides surround my entirety, she spoke these exact words, just like so… and no, not so softly…“I kinda hate you. You'll never understand, so it doesn't matter, don’t try to. But, I hate you... I don't want to be your shadow, or the one that listens to you. I'll forgive her one day, but today is not that day. So, beg another time, alright? Well, truthfully I do forgive her, well sorta, not really, maybe sorta, kinda, no not really… I just don't want to be near you, know you or see you. Don't ask if this is about you, because I probably won't tell you. Now, please die… Thank you.”She didn’t do enough, she shot them down first. She was weak, selfish and all in between. Acceptance, for being a coward. Nothing was fearless, cowardice… You’re petite and ugly, honesty is fine when piercing her deeply. Jealousy, resentment, or maybe, “I have no clue”... They say honesty is best, but then anger comes and that's scary. They say no white lies, but then vexation and then trembling. You know what I mean?Masking poor decisions… You really suck, do you know what that means? I know that's why grasping on so tightly, let go of her. “Please set her free.” You may win, but they will live, they said everything and that melted into her, permanently?"What a silly girl... I wonder now, how is she?"
Wake
Most memories are not of us, most things are not us. When you look back, what do you see? I hope it’s light and all things sweet. I hope you remember it all as I do, I hope it was as special to you too. I hope I did good at what I was supposed to. I hope at some point, I was even something to look up to… There are things one wishes for, longs for, things you can’t change, things that could be cool other ways. I’ve dreamed of a life for two, the type you meet so young and somehow get married to, groups of friends that never leave you, families that are united with you. I’ve thought of all these things and some, even wished and longed for them. Have you longed for them? I’ve longed for so many things...With you, we lived in a dream. We created a world just for two, anything we wanted we made, making it perfect for us two. If I could, I would live there forever with you, just you. Because of you, I believe in a world that has yet to be created, I still wish to create that with you…I hate that one can never accept what they have, until it’s far too late. I think you are taught by losing what you’ve always had, it’s always what you have... Though, technically I never lost you, time just ticks, never stopping, no matter how much you wish it to. Did you wish for it too? I wished for it all back, because my selfish wish came true. I wished for a time without you, and that was what came true. So, someday I hope you “come” back, but maybe it’s me that needs to. I left, was it too soon? I’m afraid that I abandoned you, was it too soon? I’m afraid you still needed me with you, I needed you, wanted to…
Fairies
Where we live, there is only greenery... Dark at night, yet shining when morrow arrives. That is still very strange to I... The light of my lamp is always so bright, but these days it flickers with a "no more" kind of light... What I mean, is you aren't aiding my light, you're showering all over me, you're water, I just don't need... Get away from me, stop trying to drown me... The voice's of the bridegroom and bride are no longer echoing within me... Leave me, you don't need me... All you want is a body, and you aren't getting me... All nations are surrounding me, against me... Yet you fight alone, not one merchant beside thee. A wizard, he is a tricky prick, I wouldn't give him anything... I've deceived you with my sorcery, let go, just let go of me...
Liar
Not a decade, but it's something… Used, but using too. Feelings, contradicting, can make anyone seem invalidated, silly… Blaming, blaming and blaming, both sides and in certain views same actions. What is needed to feel like enough, you as in us. Just one. Forgiveness, forgiveness is beautiful… An endless puzzle, rebuilding and building. Maybe the liar will become the most honest… Honesty, how strange…
Uncomfy
I want to make you uncomfortable...
So uncomfortable, you won't be able to stand to be by me... You'll run from me, so far from me, you're so scared... So scared of me, that you won't be able to escape me, get away from me... You're stuck with me, never leaving me. You love me, only me. Everyone reminds you of me, no escape from me. I'm your only view, thoughts, dreams, all memories lead back to you and me. You're so silly, where do you think you're heading to? You belong to me, a tool an object. Does it sound familiar to you? You promised you'd stay by me, and you don't lie. Trust me... Uneasy, how uneasy? You please me, not I you... Remember you started this, so don't you dare try to make it sound like I chose you... I won't protect you, but no one will touch you, have you. I'll mark you, burn you and make sure I'm all down you, all over you... Swallow everything I give you, you want nothing more than I inside you. Trust me, I'm never wrong or lie... You're beautiful in my eyes, looking so cute. You want me, don't you? But, you see I'm slightly bored today... So next time, maybe. Sit tightly in my palace, waiting, so patiently for me... You always look so gorgeous sitting there, waiting for I, desiring only mine... Trust me, just trust me... I'm just kidding, in time...
A Brighter One
Wearing green, a pullover to be exact.
Comfortable, it all seemed so comfortable...
Hugging, a swift, quick motion, a missing motion.
Your anatomy pressed against mine, faceless, warmth, a sort of safeness...
Like you haven't seen someone you truly love, for a long while, perhaps maybe ever...
Why, can you tell you why?
Visions, you're dreaming...
You don't like dreaming...
I like to believe you are what controls the wits, the mind.
Through the temple, where are your stringy bits?
What is it they lack, how do they intertwine?
Can they connect to mine, palomar knot you and I?
I still would love to glimpse inside...
Faceless, pressing palms on sides, caressing tissue; may I touch you, unveiling your insides?
Gorgeous, dilly dallying for whatever reasons.
Repetitive, you are so very repetitive...
I don't think I like you, nor do I want to...
How I’d love to hate you…
Do I truly love you?
Numb
Can't breathe, nor think... Feeling seems to be of the past, yet feeling all too much... Body aching, soundless screams... Silently staring, as we disintegrate in our own wet red... I can't feel me...
tihs
I dug into your soul, for it to stay an eternity.
Irresistible, isn’t it?
If your heart doesn’t beat for the core, where do your depths wander?
Spotted scars, orbs, repeating images, uncertain souls, invisible gap?
You see, as a whole.
Devouring you, leaving you, with nothing left to cling to.
I doubt you could take it back, would you cling to this once again?
Devouring first…
But, who's counting that, still on track…
Dreaming, sketching, jotting and thinking.
Yeah, thinking…
Green Goo
The talented were bright, but the inept suffered…
They squealed crimson, only to vanish…
Cute, but useless.
Giving one’s all, is that hopeless?
Arguments, aren’t they delightful?
Vibrating walls and waves flowing back and forth, screaming about matters that really have no use?
It's similar to you...
Atop a diving board, descending inside, you're so very smooth, your liquid perfectly used…
They want to drink you, devouring straight out of you.
Do you reckon they will become you?
Humming children's lullabies, blazing, yet so very soothing.
Comparable to song birds chirping, infuriating.
I don't want to, but you want to...
What do you suppose we do?
Nerina
I don't believe in the soft voice in the distance, nor the one suggesting wrong.
You, I do believe in you.
You can be rude and tell me things that may not even be true.
But, your voice is so right, it makes me cry and I believe even want to die.
Is it why I like you?
We're very similar, maybe I was made out of you, from you?
When your voice echoes through the night, it brings so much joy.
I hope it makes you feel right...
I mix up things that aren't true, seeing you, touching you, feeling you, talking with you, loving you, loving is you...
Neediness covers sorrow.
When talking to you, you feel needed and wanted, don't you?
Created by 笑愛 Reverie